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Been A really long long time since i updated.. went to watch pandorum wif ah yuan and calvin.. lol lame show.. and just yesterday mi and calvin watc hthe stupid tsunami show.. waste of money... might as well watch it online or something -_- lesson learned.. nv watch what is not advertised often on tv... not that i really watch tv.. but oh well.. anyway... been meeting wif wendy recently.. seem she has some diff in her r/s but won comment much... just hope in the end.. she can be happy... ^^ and i m sure she will..

miss my hamsters so much... i hope they r doing fine..

2molo prolly going to be another sad day... oh well..

Woossh!!

LOL James wanna slp liao Shu with his stupid face..
Ah Yuan.. our Shui Ge

Old School Da Ge Da.. Dun play play.. by Nokia de

Whole family of Da Ge Da LOL

So long Sat haven came out to town like how we do in the past liao.. i think got at least 1 month Sat i at home liao.. Watch Kung fu dunk wif Ah Yuan and James.. nice show.. think will watch another time.. ending v touching.. might have part 2.. lol.. wanna go on for Jumper after that.. but the slots all full liao.. zzzz so end up nv watch.. Shu join us at PS later for dinner.. had KFC for dinner.. Ah yuan spoilt sport.. 8pc Chicky dun wanna b part of it.. go ordered a Zinger instead -_- so full lol...After that on the way home, we went past this hp shop in PS that is showcasing DA GE DA!! LOL So old school liao.. got Nokia de somemore..

Surf through a random forum.. Saw this topic " What name will u gif ur future children?" Hhmm that got mi pondering.. finally tot of a name for both guy and gal.. Alevina(Air-le-vi-na) Goh Tian Yee for gal.. and Alvan (L-van) Goh Tian Yu for guy.. Wonder if they will like it.. LOL think too far liao.. Ah yes i noe sounds like ur name mei.. but not influence de by u wor lol dun think so much.. =)

V day damm sian.. No date as expected.. played Maple wif Cal till wee hours.. Nth to do.. bo bian lo.. dun tel mi wanna go out see ppl hug hug kiss kiss meh? Then i hug and kiss hu sia??

Cal and his bro went to get a cat today.. i think name Coco.. should b female la.. free de.. 1 day go his house see the cat.. i like cats LOL.. but i love my hamsters the most.. that is until a Chinchilla (Long Mao) comes along.. Hehe..

B getting a new com soon(hopefully).. b able to play game wif out compromising on the graphics.. not like now.. everything also have to at the lowest end.. ZZZ..

Brought a Feng Yun comic 2day.. BK 66.. i still haven so many in between haven buy yet.. Sian.. must catch up if not out of print liao then GG..

Ah Yuan brought Jay Chou's World tour CD 2day.. for the Kung Fu Dunk theme song.. LOL.. end up he rip liao i ask him send mi.. LOL free song lol.. dun even nd to hunt for it lol.. lol in between the song got Jay telling a gal he wanna go 3rd floor lol.. overall okie song la.. but i think he promote himself like too much.. Main char is him.. Director is him.. Song wriiten by him.. Sang by him.. Even song name also his name.. Wah Seh.. Superb promote himself sia.. but nvm la.. he got the seh to do it.. So long as the movies he make is nice to watch can liao..

Kinda miss my mei wor.. So recently she not free or when i go msn too late she slp le.. hhmm no1 to chat wif can b v lonely de lei... T.T Hhmm dun noe y.. only meet once but can talk so well.. LOL some ppl just can gel..

Wendy sick liao.. won't b coming 2molo.. Hai.. Almost everyday go out til so late.. Come home only at the wee hour in the morning.. how not to b sick?? Hai i noe tel u all these also no use.. u won't listen de.. Drink, sing, watch midnight movies.. Is this really the lifestyle that u wanna live??

Late liao.. nth much also le.. gotta wake up early 2molo go Ah yuan house to collect Ang Bao!!~ Then they come my house LOL.. see can get pic a not.. LOL..

Something's wrong wif Blogger!

Hhmm seems like there are some problem wif Blogger, for some reason my music play can't b taken off or changed. Some ppl r also experincing the same thing. Found a few nice piece of music that i used to listen to.. wanna upload also cannot zzz at least it's nice to mi. =) If u r listening to a piece of background music call Gliding on Emotions then yes that's the piece of music i m talking abt..

Bacon and Cheese are finally back together.. seems like that miss each other so much they started sniffing and playing wif each other.. poor things.. they both became skinny liao.. but they r eating lei.. hhmm mayb i should mix some dry and wet food so they will drink and eat more..

Poor Edison, his pic got all leak out to the internet.. he must b feeling damm sian now.. i sure hope Elva's pic dun get leak out.. i like her.. hhmm but he also de la.. take com to repair also dunno how to xfer the pic into a portable HDD 1st.. wanna play gals also must clean up ma.. lazy til like that.. hai dunno what to say..

Sucky work.. every1's begining to slack liao.. FY coming to an end.. must hurry and clear all the outstanding shit.. Sian.. received news that my section might have to help out wif desk duty!!! AAarrgghh this si the 1st time i heard in SAF history a perm staff gotta help out in desk duty on weekends.. great.. i sure hope they dun pick on clerk cos in my section only mi and my assistant.. and my boss.. Boss dun nd do.. so only mi and him.. but he ording in June.. mi lei?? Still long.. AArrghh they should make ppl like Mr DM do desk duty la.. everything also wanna care.. not his problem also wanna care.. Number 1 BSer sia.. got such compy he sure champ wan.. always like to kpkb... ppl late 1 min wanna confine ppl liao.. then he ownself late? somemore is not once or twice.. it's for sometime liao.. nvm he big.. CWO.. i LL k.. best he take leave go philipines la.. and STAY THERE FOR GD.. actually he quite okie de la.. just that his method v sucky.. then always like to call mi go down his office to listen some "instruction".. U call mi on my office phone to call mi to go down ur office to listen to ur instruction?? U call mi already rite?? cannot convey the instruction like that? Top secret meh? Top Secret thing u think u and i can noe meh? wah lao.. wanna feel u r the boss just say.. dun nd do til like that.. every1 in the section can see.. every1 noe.. k? everything also dunno.. boss or Comd ask thing u always look at us.. expecting us to ans.. show what? u noe how much nia.. always is us doing the shit job for u.. then u go up and say.. Sir, i ASK them to do it ar.. Wah.. ASK us to do it ar? Not "ordered" meh?? i think if 1 day all of us nv come see how u die.. everything also dunno.. all those com stuff is supposed to b u do wan.. but u nv do tel us all to do.. then ur card for what wan? ask ur guy and mi use ur card so it look like u r the 1 doing the job rite? Nice man..

CNY hongbao still oke this yr.. got around 200+ but big bulk come from mum and dad la.. hhmm .. hope every1 got big big hong bao this yr too.. =) all got more $ to spend.. mi? i wann save as much as i can.. no $ le.. so better start saving now.. better late then nv.. if not i think my dream can poof liao..

This sat going Ky's house.. too bad ah yuan cannot make it.. sian la he.. CNY both sat he kanna work.. but at least he din miss out on DMC4.. nice graphic.. but i suck at that game.. cool game though.. damm stylish fights.. so long nv play wangan liao.. think i got off the hook for gd le la.. even play also play awhile nia now.. haha now mad abt online mahjong.. best dun nd pay a single cent.. not like that time go Jon's house.. Nb lost 16 bucks.. Cal big winner that nite.. total got abt 22 i think.. so i lost the most.. =( nvm i buck up.. next time not so easy to eat mi liao.. WAHAHAHAHA..


New yr stuff still haven eat finish.. better hurry and clear them.. if not spoilt liao food wasted.. lol Cheese is looking at mi typing this sentance.. LOL the next sentance is she type wan.. "Haha this is Cheese, hope every1 get lots of luck in the year of Rat!" Wah Cheese so clever.. lol not la.. i hold her then she step on the kb nia.. lol gd effort thought =) better put her back in the cage.. if not later she fell down again get another injury mean another 60 buck fly away...


Hhmm.. slowly and slowly.. i think i m begining to move on.. at least i think i m.. we now v less contect.. the moment contact feel like got hostility like that.. my parents noe abt us le.. now that we broke up.. they keep asking.. but i just dun feel like talking abt this anymore.. sry mum dad, i noe u care but i really dun wish to answer anymore.. then i sms her "Congrats, my parents noe le" She ask mi y i say congrats.. i tot her it's nothing.. but she say i say til like she's v happy that my parents noe abt it, it may b this way, but sometimes i just wish she knew that.. in my mind.. i nv wanted to hurt her.. say all these is because mayb i feel that we can no longer b as close to each other as b4.. so might as well use this congrats to drive us apart further.. they say it's hard for a pair of lover to b back as gd friends.. now i noe it's really true.. mayb this way.. it will b better for us both.. i dun wanna do this.. i m but a slave to circumstances.. a part of mi wanna stay in that very spot waiting for her return.. but the other part of mi.. tel mi it's time to move on.. v confuse.. still thinking of her everyday.. V day's coming.. i noe she won't b lonely that day.. mayb Jerry will take leave to celebrate wif her.. even if dun have.. i think she will also celebrate wif her friends.. Might as well take this chance to wish all the couples in the world a happy and joyous V day.. mayb all ur love stay hard and fast.. keep the passion burning.. that's what i failed in.. and for all those who haven found a date, dun worry i m sure u guys will get a date soon.. =)

K ba that's it.. long post.. hope btw the time u all read til here.. u all won boycott my blog.. LOL.. Bye!

Can u install LOVE??

Customer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?
Customer: I can do that. I'm not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?
Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma'am?
Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now.Is it okay to install while they are running?
Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma'am?
Customer: Let me see....I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.
Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma'am?
Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, I'm done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?
Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?
Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?
Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops...I have an error message already. What should I do?
Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?
Customer: It says "ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS". What does that mean?
Customer Service Rep: Don't worry ma'am, that's a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before It can "LOVE"others.
Customer: So what should I do?
Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"?
Customer: Yes, I have it.
Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.
Customer: Thank you.
Customer Service Rep: You're welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the "MYHEART" directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, EALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!
Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go...
Customer: Yes?
Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.
Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.





Found the above story quite nice.. looking at it remind mi of all the happy times i had with her.. though she's with some1 she loves and that some1 loves her too.. i can't help but sometime think.. mayb if i had held her.. mayb if i were more romantic.. mayb if i tried to be a better boyfriend.. then mayb we won't b apart.



You guys have told mi to gif her up.. she's not worth my time.. but 3 yrs.. can't expect mi to gif up like that rite? Still, thanks ppl, u been there.. helping mi along.. words might have been exchanged harshly.. really sorry buddies.. u noe who u r.. Thanks Cal, best bro 4ever, KY, yeah i noe u been trying to save us but i guess that's it... Ah Yuan, i noe even though u din say much, u cared.. that nite with KY Cal and yanting at jon's house downstairs, u let mi saw another side of u.. James, sad to hear abt what happen to u and ur gal.. Tear jerker love story.. but still i salute u for ur love for her..i noe she will always watch over u.. Jon, though we always dun see eye to eye, but i noe all along u r just trying to help.. we might piss each other off, but that's how bros behave rite?? Yanting, even though we r not so close but really thankd for all the help u offered =) Mayb u b forever blissfully with KY.. Elf, thanks for being there gal.. if not for u i think i go mad liao.. love ur scorching remarks.. =)



It's really painful.. watching some1 u love in the arms of another.. calling him baby.. but perhaps it's for the best.. i was nv a gd guy to being with.. much less a gd boyfriend.. yeah she's right.. i might make a gd boyfriend but i m no husband matieral.. =( It has ended.. now only happy memories serve to remind me of all the things we used to do..



Yes i still love u.. Still miss u.. still yearned for ur touch.. and ur kiss.. still miss ur hair.. miss ur eyes.. miss the way u talk.. miss the way u always smile.. i have so many misses.. ooaah how i wished u knew.. how i wish time can turn back.. i look up to the stars.. looking for an answer but all i got was a empty blank. Now another guy is in ur life.. wish u all the best.. had to leave u.. just hope through it all.. u will think of mi at times...


okie, enough of all the emo posts.. bad news..

CHEESE IS INJURIED!!! *SOBZ* she had bleeding from her vagina.. omg i was so worried.. brought her to see a vet.. at serangoon north.. Vet was a lady, v nice.. she held Cheese up and examined her.. Cal was there looking.. LOL i think he was bored.. when she held her.. she found bleeding omg.. i was like so heartpain.. she say hamsters r v fragile animals and any loss of blood can prove fatal.. Thanks God she alrite now.. she gave some med.. to stop the bleeding and stomach pain.. think she alrite.. she's being to move alot more and sniffing around like how she used to.. Vet said internal bleeding likely due to a fall that i dun noe of.. gotta show more love and concern for her now she needs care.. poor little gal..

When vet say at the end " Okie Cheese, time to go home now, Daddy's going to have to feed u some horrible medicine so u can get well." I smiled, cos i realise for the 1st time, yeah i m like a daddy to them.. these small little furballs, came into my house, not knowing anything.. so like little kids have to teach.. gif them a small home, hope they r happy.. they still bit mi.. but it's okie.. as long as they r happy, i m happy too =) at 1st tot her injury was due to being builled by Bacon, was so angry that i "confine" him in a fish tank.. end up vet say it's due to a fall then i realise i wronged Bacon!!! Sry Bacon, next time daddy will check things out 1st okie?? Must forgive daddy okie?? Went to NTUC after work and get some egg tofu and lettuce.. For Bacon as an apology and for Cheese to help her recover faster.. now still have to stay apart.. cos Cheese haven recovered.. but Bacon wanna mate.. Cheese must b stressed already.. so Bacon is going to have to stay in the tank for a few more days.. fed Cheese her med.. had such a hard time becoz like kids, she simply won't stay still for the med.. nd to get sis's help to slowly feed her.. sry Cheese if i was too rough.. but if dun feed u ur medicine, how to get well rite? Get well soon okie? and start the yr of the rat in a clean bill of health!!

Okie tired le.. will update soon ppl.. CNY coming.. so wish every1 a happy CNY and hope $$ comes into all of our pocket!! YAY!!

Friday!!!

Yup this is mi.. yeah sucky face i noe.. not handsome de.. wearing my RSAF uniform.. lol

This is my male hamster.. Bacon.. look skiny in this pic but in fact is a fat hamster.. eat sunflower seeds all day long.. then slp.. zzzzzzzzz slp wake up eat again.. like pig.. lol but i still love him all the same..

This is my female hamster.. name Cheese.. haha i know dun look like cheese but she's cute.. pic standard not so gd cos hp take de.. both are Winterwhite pearl...

Another wk went by le.. another week closer to ORD.. still long.. This yr Dec.. Mr DM din do anything for this week save for irritating us NSF earlier in the week.. kinda hope this last though.. hard la.. Boss not around for almost the whole wk.. slack like siao.. eat breakfast.. do a bit of work.. then lunch.. then slp a while.. talk cock.. finish up.. go home.. boring wk.. played a bit of Maple here and there.. v sian.. damm no life..

Met wendy earlier this wk.. she feeling down.. did my best hope she's okie.. they keep fighting i see le also dunno what to say.. hope she really make the rite choice..

nth much to update on this wk.. that's it for the day ba..

When love fades...

Got a new hair cut today.. Hope it's look better then the last.. lol.. Nth much today.. went to work came home let Wendy use com.. i clean up my hamster's cage.. then she went home, i pick up her com from her house.. made the painful trek back home..

Sometimes i wonder if it's really worth it.. Ppl always say things like " If u love her, u let her go" and "As long as she's happy, i b happy too" All bullshit... just lying to themselves.. let's face it.. what's wrong wif guys showing their emotions?? Guys who actually believe in that r really running away, upset cry la.. What's wrong wif crying? The world is a messy place...

"Everytime u see her in the arms of another, u winch. Every step u take seems to be so heavy. Every smile she has on her face, u feel stabbing pain. Like wounds being ripped apart.. Soul being torned asunder.. The pain is incomparable.. It's like a battle u will never win.. Pride battered, body become numb.. Tears just roll down and once again u realise your own weakness. You took a big breath and feel the air swelling up in your chest. Suddenly, the air in your lungs seems to come alive, wanting to burst out of your chest. You open ur mouth and shouted... and shouted... and shouted.. But nothing helps. The pain in your heart and soul dominate your every nerves, sending painful sensation throughout your body. Thoughts run wild and free in your pathetic mind. And through it all, you realise She no longer loves you anymore. Whatever defenses u laid for yourself just crash down and the overwhelming feeling just won't fade. Insanity slowly creep in but you fight to keep a rational mind. Pressure seems to be weighting down upon u, growing heavier and heavier. Love has become hatred for some, apthay for the others. All the memories are slowly being replaced by someone else's.. All the things u used to do together, she's doing it with some1 else... How you cried out that you wish to be the one again.. But reality hits hard. Very hard. You weeped uncontrollably and mayb for the 1st time in your life, you realise that a guardian angel needs someone too.. a guardian angel need help too.. and most of all you realise that nothing seems to matter anymore, because the the guardian angel that you were looking for has past u by, never to return, never to love you anymore......"

Blog set up..

Yay! Done the 1st step to making a blog! Finally a place where i can say all the things i wanna say here.. a place to bare my soul.. Now what should i do next?? Get a new skin?? Yeah i noe the default skin look sucky... Not that i had a choice.. Gotta learn how to edit stuff nicely on blog 1st.. Geez i m no techy guy.. Do my best i guess..