Friday!!!

Yup this is mi.. yeah sucky face i noe.. not handsome de.. wearing my RSAF uniform.. lol

This is my male hamster.. Bacon.. look skiny in this pic but in fact is a fat hamster.. eat sunflower seeds all day long.. then slp.. zzzzzzzzz slp wake up eat again.. like pig.. lol but i still love him all the same..

This is my female hamster.. name Cheese.. haha i know dun look like cheese but she's cute.. pic standard not so gd cos hp take de.. both are Winterwhite pearl...

Another wk went by le.. another week closer to ORD.. still long.. This yr Dec.. Mr DM din do anything for this week save for irritating us NSF earlier in the week.. kinda hope this last though.. hard la.. Boss not around for almost the whole wk.. slack like siao.. eat breakfast.. do a bit of work.. then lunch.. then slp a while.. talk cock.. finish up.. go home.. boring wk.. played a bit of Maple here and there.. v sian.. damm no life..

Met wendy earlier this wk.. she feeling down.. did my best hope she's okie.. they keep fighting i see le also dunno what to say.. hope she really make the rite choice..

nth much to update on this wk.. that's it for the day ba..

When love fades...

Got a new hair cut today.. Hope it's look better then the last.. lol.. Nth much today.. went to work came home let Wendy use com.. i clean up my hamster's cage.. then she went home, i pick up her com from her house.. made the painful trek back home..

Sometimes i wonder if it's really worth it.. Ppl always say things like " If u love her, u let her go" and "As long as she's happy, i b happy too" All bullshit... just lying to themselves.. let's face it.. what's wrong wif guys showing their emotions?? Guys who actually believe in that r really running away, upset cry la.. What's wrong wif crying? The world is a messy place...

"Everytime u see her in the arms of another, u winch. Every step u take seems to be so heavy. Every smile she has on her face, u feel stabbing pain. Like wounds being ripped apart.. Soul being torned asunder.. The pain is incomparable.. It's like a battle u will never win.. Pride battered, body become numb.. Tears just roll down and once again u realise your own weakness. You took a big breath and feel the air swelling up in your chest. Suddenly, the air in your lungs seems to come alive, wanting to burst out of your chest. You open ur mouth and shouted... and shouted... and shouted.. But nothing helps. The pain in your heart and soul dominate your every nerves, sending painful sensation throughout your body. Thoughts run wild and free in your pathetic mind. And through it all, you realise She no longer loves you anymore. Whatever defenses u laid for yourself just crash down and the overwhelming feeling just won't fade. Insanity slowly creep in but you fight to keep a rational mind. Pressure seems to be weighting down upon u, growing heavier and heavier. Love has become hatred for some, apthay for the others. All the memories are slowly being replaced by someone else's.. All the things u used to do together, she's doing it with some1 else... How you cried out that you wish to be the one again.. But reality hits hard. Very hard. You weeped uncontrollably and mayb for the 1st time in your life, you realise that a guardian angel needs someone too.. a guardian angel need help too.. and most of all you realise that nothing seems to matter anymore, because the the guardian angel that you were looking for has past u by, never to return, never to love you anymore......"

Blog set up..

Yay! Done the 1st step to making a blog! Finally a place where i can say all the things i wanna say here.. a place to bare my soul.. Now what should i do next?? Get a new skin?? Yeah i noe the default skin look sucky... Not that i had a choice.. Gotta learn how to edit stuff nicely on blog 1st.. Geez i m no techy guy.. Do my best i guess..